Stella wrote a paragraph on her Fifteen Months… blog that needs to be shared with every milspouse. I know we have all sat and wondered these things, and that many of our questions go unanswered. I often feel like my husband's deployments contribute immensely to who he is as a person, and yet I know nothing about them. His day-to-day life is a mystery to me. I wish I knew the little things: what he eats, how he sleeps, what movie he might've watched. And yet I know very little about a combined 29 months of his life…

Stella writes:

Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and wonder what's
happening in that other parallel universe when he's living. Now that
I'm wondering this from Germany instead of California like I was last
time doesn't seem to make me feel any closer to his world. It's 2:42 am
right now, so he must be sleeping but I'm still curious about the smell
and temperature of the air he's breathing in. I wonder what might have
happened today or what conversations he had that made a part of him
grow or change perspectives. There are so many things that I will never
know about, so many conversations about the small details of our
parallel lives I know will never be recounted. The collective weight of
the significance ofthese many seperately experienced momentswakes me
up in the middle of the night.

(Thanks to Post Tenebras Lux for the link.)

About Sarah

Sarah has been married to her soldier for a bit more than 10 years. In the past decade, they've been at six different duty stations in four different branches of the Army. They've also endured three deployments, six miscarriages, and a failed IVF. Sarah's blogging focus has shifted some in the past five years, from common military issues to something more personal: the difficult intersection between the military and infertility. It's hard for some couples to start a family; it's even harder when one person spends a lot of time on the other side of the globe. But Sarah was lucky enough to declare Mission Accomplished when their daughter was born 10 days after her husband's return from Afghanistan. And she tries to remind herself how irreplaceable and cherished that daughter is now that she's entered the terrible two's. In her free time, Sarah is a pioneer housewife: knitting, crocheting, and cooking ... and sometimes even firing a weapon.