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Oops, I Got Attached To a Plan

I've been waiting to see if my husband would get permission to come home from Afghanistan for the birth of our baby. It seems that he has gotten tentative permission and, assuming that he gets official word sometime soon, he told me the potential date range he'd be allowed to come home.

What's the first rule of Army? Never believe the Army. Nothing is guaranteed until after it has happened. Don't get attached to any proposed plans.

I know this. I know it know it know it. And yet within ten seconds of hearing that potential date, I got so hooked on that possibility. Beyond emotionally invested. I started making mental plans and all my visions of labor started to include him in the delivery room.

I am walking on dangerous ground…but I couldn't help myself. No amount of logical restraint could keep my heart from getting hooked on that date.

My heart is doing somersaults while my brain is worrying we're headed for disaster.

My heart is winning…gulp.

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About Sarah

Sarah has been an Army wife for only eight years so far, but what an eight years it's been: 5 duty stations, 4 branches of the Army, 3 deployments, 2 years of failed attempts to start a family, and 1 baby born a week after a nine-month deployment.

Sarah spends most of her time these days involved with various baby playgroups on post. She also spends so much of her time in sweatsuits that her husband says she belongs in a Wes Anderson movie. Sarah's hobbies include making babyfood and trying to squeeze in a bit of knitting in the evenings. Notable projects include a stuffed Chinook and a four-fingered glove for Joan D'Arc's husband.

Comments

  1. Angela says:

    It seems to be the exact opposite with me.. My due date's in 10 days, my husband'll be leaving to come home for his R&R in 7… But I just KNOW that this baby'll (our first) will come early now.. a feeling I didn't have until I got his dates..

  2. Sarah says:

    Oh Angela, I hope the timing works out for you. Hang on and wait for Daddy, Angela's baby!

  3. Amber says:

    Sarah and Angela,
    Saying a little prayer that everything works out for both of you.

  4. Joan D'Arc says:

    Unfortunately we are human beings and no matter how hard we try sometimes, it is VERY hard to NOT get excited about possible events that MAY happen when WE want them to.
    All I can say is that I pray it all works out for you, Sarah and Angela!

  5. Apryl says:

    One of my DH's subs got his R&R date of the 22nd. The baby came (first one mind you due date was 2/1) on 1/19. He got to watch and "help" via Skype. So he'll be there to help out in the initial days but then has to go back and suffer through 10 more months. I'm not sure what's worse..honestly. A MILSpouse friend of mine found out she was pregnant after her hubby deployed. Delivered the baby..he met him when he was about 3-4 mos old then made it home before he turned 1. I can't figure out which way is crappier but I do know you can't plan on crap for the military.
    Good luck to you both!

  6. She of the Sea says:

    My tummy gets all excited when I think about it, so I don't think there is any way that you could stop yourself. We'll just keep wishing it to be so.

  7. Kate says:

    My fingers are crossed for you!!!

  8. Kerry says:

    I've always found that the more you try to NOT think about something happening, the harder it becomes to not think about it. Good luck and I hope he makes it in time!

  9. Crossing fingers! Hope everythings turns out well.

  10. msmimi123 says:

    When me hubby and I had our first of four I thougt I'd die if he wasnt there. They took him off a 378 and put him on a smaller boat that went out daily to keep him in closer for the birth. But then the tragedy with the shuttle blew up your know the one with the first teacher and they had a search and rescue for weeks. so the had to heli him in. but the chaplin got in there. thabk goodness I was with no other family or they wouldnt have. And we had just moved to base. But I couldnt help thinking about those people out there in the water, and how important his job really was and how proud of him I was. I hope your husband does get to be there it is important for you guys. And I do thank him and you for your service. Good luck to the both of you.